Friday, August 13, 2010

Mundong de Kahon....

Minsan naiisip kong ang buhay ko ay komporme sa madla...
Naaayon sa normal...
Parang ang hugis ay kahon...
Buhay de Kahon...

Maraming nagsasabi na ang buhay ay sadyang mahirap....
May narinig rin ako mula sa palabas sa telebisyon...simple man o marangyang buhay ang iyong naiisin upang sumaya ka, parehong mahirap paring maabot...
Kaya naisip kong abutin ang aking pangarap, mahirap man ang landas...ay pilit ko paring tatahakin.
Marami man ang humadlang....Tumutol man ang madla...kumulog man or kumidlat...harangan man ng sibat...ipinagpilitan ko pa rin ang gusto ko...
Marami akong naranasang hirap...lahat naman ng tao'y dumaan sa hirap...
Marami akong sinakripisyo at ipinagpalit upang makamit lamang ang inaasam asam...
Ngunit minsan natutulala ako...at madalas itong mangyari lalo na pag nagiisa...kung tama ba ang mga ginawa ko?
Sapat bang ipinagpalit kong buhay para sa isang engrandeng buhay...
Tama bang iniwan ko at kinalimutan ko ang mga bagay sa buhay ko upang marating lamang ang dulong hinahabol ko....
Sabi ng karamihan ay oo, sa tingin nilang ang bagong daan ng aking buhay ay patungo sa ikararangal at ikauunlad ko....
Sabi ng ilan ay hindi, dapat ay nakuntento na ako sa buhay na kaya kong makamtam sa nakalipas kong pagkakataon...
Ang sabi ko nama'y hindi ko alam...ayokong isipin...ayokong magsisi...ayokong manghinayang...

Pero sa totoo'y may pagaalinlangan ako...hanggang sa kasalukuyan...
Ngunit ang tanging iniisip ko ay SAYANG...
Sayang ang hirap at pagod ng aking Ina sa pag papaaral niya sa akin...
Sayang ang pagod, puyat, hinagpis, sama ng loob, at kung ano anong sakit na dulot ng pagpili sa buhay na ito...

Akala ng mga tao'y masaya ang buhay ko...ngunit minsan gusto ko silang imbitahan na sumali sa aking mundo upang maintindihan nila ang aking mundo...
Ang aking buhay ay parang de kahon...
Maaaring mukhang masaya...matatalino ang mga tao sa mundo ko....kaya walan puwang ang pagkakamali....
Ngunit ito'y kahalintulad sa isang kahong de papel....iba't iba ng kula'y, desenyo, o, laki...
Ngunit parepareho pa ring KAHON...

Minsan naitanong sa aking ng aking Ina nung minsan akoý nalungkot...Kung ganyan pa lamang kaliit ang problema mo ay sobrang naghihinagpis ka na riyan...
Ang sabi ko...Problema ba iyon? pag hindi ko na kaya, e di magpapalit na ako ng buhay...
Natawa lang kaming magina...
Ngunit alam kong maaari ko tong gawin pag hindi ko na kaya...

Ang buhay ko ay parang de kahon....
Kailangan kumporme sa kagustuhan ng nakararami....
Ang sabi ko....kaunting tiis na lang...at ikaw na ang susunod na makakamit ng pangarap...

Sana sa dulo ng lahat ito, ay may landas na hindi ko pagsisisisihan....
Sana sa susunod ay di na kahon ang hugis...
Sana sa susunod ay mapili ko ang simpleng buhay ngunit masaya....
Ang klase ng buhay na hindi ko kailangan maghirap ang kalooban ko ng ganito...

Monday, July 19, 2010

Getting addicted...

At first, I was just searching for some new things in my life...
I wanted to loose weight...
I wanted to learn self-defense...
I wanted to learn taekwondo...
But fate's joke was on me...
I learned wu shu instead...
Thinking about my objectives...I'm achieving it...I think I've achieved it...
But my goals changed just in a nick of time...
I've become addicted...obsessed...
I want to learn more...
I want to do more...
I want to achieve more...
Now, I've re-aligned my life to suite my goals...
my goal now is not just losing weight and self-defense...
But I want to achieve something in my life while I can..
I'm now challenging my body to do what my mind wants to achieve...

I've watched a movie before entitled "My Big Love"...and it taught me 5 steps to a successful life...
1. Set your goals...you must set it for yourself..not for others...
2. Start Today...do not put things aside...there are no tomorrows for you to achieve your goals today....
3. There are no short cuts....you cannot achieve something grand in a perfect way if you don't persevere for it...you cannot be an expert if you don't begin as a novice...
4. Motivate yourself...there will be times that you want to give up because of the hardships in life...but, you cannot give up...the only thing you should do is try to remember why you are there and motivate yourself more to do it...
5. Be Happy...and this is the most important thing....you should be happy no matter what...because this is the only basis for you to say that all the hardships are all worthwhile...

This is my life teachings that I will forever remember...=)

Friday, July 9, 2010

My summer's Sweat...


The summer of 2010 was not that easy...
Summer classes must be taken...two subjects at school and a Wushu training to balance...
Speed is essential every friday...must run from practice to get to class...
Encountering many hardships to get good grades...
But deep inside, believing to pass it all is already at the palm of my hands...
Summer has ended...not knowing what's in store for the next season...
Got the grades now.....and the result was a delight...finally passing the subjects I took...
At first, being glad that I got such good grades and thinking being very lucky to have such generous professors...
However, the gossip crawled and finally reached the ears...only 5 passed in the class, I included...and no one got such high grades like mine...
Now, my perception changed..i was very lucky to have a professor who is a slave driver and give us a lot of quizzes and really compute our grades...
Now I believe that I'm really good at this thing in my life, studying law...and I'm not just passing because of professor's compassion...But also, I have the knack of things in this road less traveled...my efforts were paid....my sweat is sweet...and I've redeemed myself!

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Walking Under the Moonlit sky...

Class starts at 9am. I slept the night before at 4am. just had almost 3 hours of sleep. I arrived a little earlier. After the introduction and assignment, our professor dismissed us.

I plan to sleep at the library, but my friends arrived. I was with a very special friend the whole lunch time. I was a little down because of the things I knew about him.The things that I discovered made me think that maybe I was not so special for him after all...that I maybe he was not worth all of it. I set aside all of my thoughts while i was with him and my friends. I just enjoyed the moment to be with him and listen to his corny jokes.

Then I left for my wushu practice. This is the first time that I got out of my rhythm. My forms are so bad when I'm not with those people that I used to practice. I got so pissed that I don't wanted to talk or do the stunts for a while. I took a break and talk to Marvin what I felt. He and his mom understand me because we've been batchmates and we know each others moves. I can say Marvin, Patrick and Bobbie were my buddies in the club. So after that moment, I asked Bobbie to please be my partner when doing the stunts because we are on the same phase when doing the stunts. I really like the thought of having a girl buddy at wushu class that is not so perfectly good. We have flaws, but we help each other in achieving the forms and stunts. Then our saturday dinner at vegetarian restaurants materialize, and this time to "My happy Veggies". It was a meager dinner but the food was great! I love this resto better than the last time. we were just 5 because the others are a little tight on the budget.

Then I need to go to our sorority activity. On the way to the place while walking in the middle of the street. i saw two little girls who were also walking ahead of me and talking.

LittleGirl1:bakit bilog ang buwan,di pa naman gabing gabi ah?
LG2:ewan,di ba pag bilog ang buwan,malalim na ang gabi.pag kalahati yung buwan, di pa masyaadong gabi.e ano pg walang buwan?
LG1:oo nga ano...ewan,siguro malapit pa lang gumabi?!

...ahahaha:)) napaisip din ako sa tanong nila habang nakangiting nglalakad at pinipgilang tumawa at sumabat sa usapan nila.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

A Quick night Out and wushu practice gone wrong




My Ust Law original Section A classmates arrange a very impromptu dinner last saturday. We were just texted the night before. I was kinda thinking about if I would run after wushu practice. but, to my dismay, Marvin and I have the wrong saturday schedule of wushu practice.

So I decided to go to the dinner with a good friend, Divine. I told her that I will only come if she will come and I promise to just eat dinner and not drink any alcoholic. So she promised to come just to see me. She fetch me at Trinoma. I gave her a chocolate rose pastillas as a belated gift for her birthday. I said that it is edible and I know she likes chocolates. (I hope she eats it!)

We arrived at the resto and found just a few friends. It was an intimate dinner. A lot of our classmates couldn't make it. But at least I got to hang out with a few important friends. My girl classmates were awestruck at my new hair do, because it was so short. They loved it! And they noticed I was getting slimmer, and its all thanks to wushu. Divine and I ate a hefty beef dinner with rice which i guiltlessly ate. I was not satisfied with the serving. i wanted to eat desserts, but i controlled my cravings. besides, the price is insane! We took a few pictures before we left.

Divine drop me of at Sm North Edsa to take my bus. I was so thankful to see her again. I hope to go out with her again!=)

Monday, June 14, 2010

Wendy’s Day out


It was a very hectic day for Wendy. She just came from a vacation at her hometown in Cebu. It was just a very short week visit to her Grandma and to get together with her childhood friends. She just came from a night of drinking spree with her former grade school classmates and she directly went to the airport to come back to Manila.

At long last Manila, she was still tired and exhausted from the drinks and flight, but she only got a few hours till she got to go home to Tuguegarao. She sleep a little at their house at Malabon for a few hours before meeting Majojojo. Majojojo was very excited to meet her. She and Wendy have been planning this get together for around a year now. She wanted to see Wendy for the first time in around five years. Finally, they met that afternoon.

At first they went to SM Megamall to meet and shop for some make up. Then they went ahead to their destination, Tiendesita’s. Majojojo went to buy Strip it Cold wax and they look around to shop. They were expecting to see a lot of new stuff that they can enjoy looking or buying. But to their dismay, there wasn’t a lot to buy and look around. Majojojo thought it was still much nicer to shop at Divisoria. So they decided to go back to SM Megamall and shop more makeup and eat dinner there. It was late in the evening when they finish all what they wanted to do. So Wendy decided to move her Tuguegarao trip till the early next morning. She and Majojojo went straight home on the same bus. They were so busy shopping and looking all around all day that they almost forgot to take some pictures. They only remembered to take some picture as souvenirs on the bus while they were on their way home. It was a fun filled day for the two. It was a rare occasion that they surely want to do again...soon!

Friday, June 4, 2010

Last Day of Summer class


June 2, 2010 was a big and hectic day for me. It was the last day for my wushu summer class and final exams for environmental law.
I intended to bring a camera with me. But somehow I cannot convince my siblings to lend me their DSLR. So I thought why not bring the owner of the camera along with me....and so I did.

I brought my sister with me as my photographer. At first she thought that she will need something to bring along to pass time. But when we arrived in my class, she was enjoying taking pictures.

We arrived a little earlier so that I can change shoes. The class seem smaller than what we had for the past two months. Some of my classmates didn't want to finish the class. Some of them didn't want to pay so they abscond after one and a half months practice. Some of my classmates were just waiting for this day so they could just stop practicing. I, on the other hand, was one of those few people who wanted to continue practicing even class starts.

Even before the class began, one of my little classmates had an accident. He bumped his head on the floor because another naughty boy pushed him. It was a really big nasty bump. I was the one who went to the nearest store to buy some ice. Damn, I need to go there with my precious wushu rubber shoes that I don't use to walk on streets. By the time I got back, he was a little calmer. They were all flabbergasted when they saw that I bought a big pack of ice. I had no choice. There are no available small pack of ice.

We went on with our practice while the little injured boy was being attended by our coach and the little naughty boy was punished. We were all excited to do all the things we learned from the class. As usual, the little girl I was with was an over-achiever-know-it-all-git. She was really annoying, but I just don't give a big damn deal about her, because I don't want to lose my wits because of her. Good thing there was "the martian"and "the starfish", my two classmates who were a lot older than her and who can understand me. They share the same sentiment with me about the girl.

When the practice was finished, we had photo ops with our coaches, Willy Wang and Vicky Ting. I was happy to be with them. I got to have a new sport, a new group of friends, new social life, new addiction,and an old new environment (because of having a new Chinese community friends). It was the first time in my life that I was really interested with a sport. it was not only the chance to get slimmer, but the chance to be really good at something. I feel fulfilled alone. I feel that I don't need guys or boys to be in my life to be really happy about something in my life.

Afterward, I let my sister go home without me. And I have to rush to go to school to have my final exams. It was surprisingly simple yet difficult exam. It was a very brain wracking exam.
I had finished my exam when the professor asked for a favor, for me to give to the dean's office the spare booklets. However, the office was already closed. So I went back to the class. She old me to leave it to the guard. My two guy classmates, who were very close to me, and I, waited for my professor because we have to give her a ride till her sister's home. It was a fun ride because we had a long chat with our prof. I really hope that we pass this subject, because I know that maám is one difficult prof to please...whew!

Sunday, May 30, 2010

A road less travelled...

I watched Maalaala mo Kaya's "Diploma" episode...Its about lola Rosa's achievement...to Graduate in high school even at a very advance age...
It was not a pretty and easy road to take. Her parents were mocked, belittled and unjustly treated by the society just because they were not educated. Se was mocked because she was not properly educated because she only finished till third year high school. Other people does not respect her and her husband because they did not finished high school. Her kids was ashamed of their undereducated parents. And when she finally decided to study again in high school, almost everyone was against it. Some of her children discouraged her, some supported her. Other people mocked her. But her only strength was her husband who have been there to support her through thick and thin. In the end, she finished her studies as a high school student.

Moral Lesson: It was a road less travel.
Everyone will discourage you.No one wants to take that road except a few. It was and it will be a nasty journey. A lot of worries and heart aches will be met along the path. But the goal will be the sweetest success anyone can ever taste.

I was watching it with my mama and little sister. I was reminded of the paths that my older sister and I took. She took med proper, while I took law proper (with a pre-med undergraduate course). We both took the harder path to reach our ultimate goal in life. I know it will be rocky, bumpy and steep road to walk on. But what can I do. There's no other way to reach our goals, but to take this unpleasant journey. All I am thinking now is when I finish this road, I will be complete and happy because I did it....on my own. My ultimate goal is to have what I've dreamed of. And I would never ever want to look back anymore. I hope that I will never regret my decision that I've exchanged my life into something more difficult than it used to be. I hope that I will reach for my dreams. A path that not everyone gets, but everyone loves to be like us in the end.

Saturday, May 29, 2010

tension and shyness..


It was a gloomy day for a summer's day. I need to leave earlier than I usually do. i need to go to the nearest photocopying machine in the mall to do some errand for my barrister buddy. I picked this pair of sandals, a white strappy wedge, a comfy yer stylish.
I finished my errand on time. But the rain poured on me. I need to walk to the train station without any umbrella, only a towel to cover my head.
My sandals, my precious white sandals got a lot of mud on the edges. I have no choice but to walk in mud.
I got on the train...good thing i got the chance to sit even though I was wet from the rain.
Everybody was wet. It smelled like wet socks....I got to my practice on time. But my coach was late...almost everybody was late....the mats were not even spread yet. No time to lay the mats, so we practiced without it. The gloom of the weather made us gloomy also...We never really do much. Its the first time that coach let us sit on the floor just to do nothing....
Then, time for me to go to my summer classes. I got there, as usual, late. My professor teased me of wearing skirt. Everyone knows, they will seldom see me in one because I hate wearing them....very uncomfortable and bare. But nevertheless, everyone noticed me..even that someone special who is sitting at the opposite end of the room. In the middle of the class, my friend signed to me that he was already hungry...I was starving also...So we decided to eat after class...After class, i first went to my barrister buddy and gave her the notes I photocopied.
While waiting for her, that special someone also went to the place where I am waiting....
Tensions build as he walks beside and past me...Then he stand next to me and smiled. i asked him what is he doing there. He answered that he went there to give something to a friend.
Small talks about the subject and things how to memorize for such subject. He was waiting for my answer, I was waiting for his. Its like a dance that everyone is looking at...and the dancers are waiting for someone to make a move....
Tensions build...awkwardness rises up...stolen pic was taken. He was just beside me...talking to me..looking at me...laughing with me...then the moment that he has to leave...and I was stuck there to wait for someone and with a friend.

After that errand, my friends and I ate at KFC....it was a wonderful night of laughing and talking about a lot of things...I miss to have those long hangouts....
A very shy boy and a timid girl makes no progress at all!

Friday, May 28, 2010

Summer School...

Finals on Credit Transactions was one hell of an exam....
The midterms was just peanuts compared to that!
It was 12 categories with sub-questions....
Topics were to broad...and questions were very tricky!
If this was a regular day, it would surely make me dizzy after exam....
But I was not...
And it was because someone made my day (or night) really really happy.
It was a not so typical exam day...I was wearing a girlie flimsy skirt.
Never expected him to be there...I was actually expecting him not to see me...
I was walking out of the library for my exam hour was nearing.
Walking towards him, when he saw me from afar...
staring right at me...our eyes locked, looking at each other...
Walking just passing him with a friend when he can't stop not to notice how I looked...blooming and in a skirt...
I just smiled and told him that I was forced to wear skirt due to lack of clean clothes...
I was beaming...but the moment have not sink in yet...
It took quite a while for me to realize how happy I was....
Now, it was quite difficult to concentrate to memorize even though I tried...
much more to focus my mind to think about the answers while the exam...
The exam was difficult in itself, but i guess its much more difficult when there is a obstruction in your sight...

Moral lesson: You don't need the world to tell you you are beautiful to be happy, sometimes, all it takes is just one special person...=)
And sometimes, no matter how difficult life is, all you need is a very good motivation to strive thru it!=)

Thursday, May 27, 2010

my new laboratory...

After years of taking a leave from blogging...(because of work, busy lifestyle and my previous site server shutdown)...I am back to the mainstream again....thanks to a friend who influenced me to write again (Mr. Panda)
and this will be my new home world...my new laboratory for my "experiments"...my writings...my life experiences...my favorites...=)
I'm a pharmacist turned law student....
I am handling chemicals, samples, products and everything in the lab before....
now, I am handling papers, books, cases and digests...to read....whew!
Change in lifestyle, change in way of thinking, addition of friends and crowds...but definitely same person....same MajoJojo...=)